I have nothing to do with my life at the moment and when you don’t have anything to do with your life, do you know what you do?…………….you read.
I go on reading spurts. And the stuff that I read isn’t exactly what you’d find in a book club….But I’ll get there one day. For now, I’ll simply read what interests me. Even if that means books about black women and their problems, magical tales, and the hardships of celebrities before fame. But I realized that one of the top things that reach me the most just through words would be lyrics.
I LOVE music! Why not read about it? I’ve owned Jay-Z’s Decoded for HELLAS now and am just now getting my hands on it and going through the pages. I’ve been a follower of Jay-z the longest out of ANYONE in the industry. After freshening up my memory to the lyrics of his songs, it’s almost refreshing to find out the underlying tones to most of his lyrics. What you thought meant one thing, meant another.
I am far from being done with the book. But there are a few things that touched me through his music…
In Jay-Z’s “Public Service Announcement”, the lyric says:
“Hope you don’t think users are the only abusers. Niggas gettin high with the game”.
Jay-Z expands on this by saying:
You start getting addicted to the thrill of it….you represent something successful and free and dangerous, all at once…..You taste a strange kind of fame. It’s as addictive as the shit you’re selling, and just as deadly.
All the time I wonder why fools stay in the drug business when it has the most repetitive negative consequences ever. Not to mention, it’s got our people out here with loose ends. But just like an addict, even though you know those consequences, it doesn’t matter. The feeling at that moment amounts the most and wins over everything. Drug Dealers and Druggies live for the moment.
Oh! And in “99 Problems”, I never focused on how at the end of each verse, he uses the word “bitch” differently. For instance at the end of the second verse:
“We’ll see how smart you are when the K-9’s come/ I got 99 problems but a bitch ain’t one”
K-9 unit………..CANINE unit…………..DOGS…………..BITCHES!!! DUH! How did I not get that?!
And Jay-Z’s “Can I Live”….
“My mind is infested with sick thoughts that circle”
Jay-Z explains:
…[it’s] about the interior of my mind….Before I learned the Law of Attraction I was aware of the power of my thoughts, staying focused, weeding out thoughts that sabotage.
The mind is crazy when you think about it. All of these thoughts are going haywire in this circle of a head, but yet you still have to pull out the correct choices in order to make corresponding decisions.
You are blessed if you actually like to exercise…..because I don’t. However, I found a few ways to switch up my routines to loosen up the monotony. Here’s a list of some various exercise routines/plans that I do during the week. Maybe you can do some of the same.
If I think of some other things to do, I’ll make a part 2.
I would personally like to shout the homie Chill out for making things happen on his own. Cats take notes this guy is coming to take things over.
Oh did I mention he shoots his own videos, does graphics, raps (he can actually rap) NETWORK, work ETC…. Like I said please take notes.
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Perusing my sites once again and found the coolest blog ever on Elle. “25 unexpected uses for beauty, fashion, and household items. The ideas are splendid! And I will definitely be using some of these ideas for myself. Here were a few that caught my eye:
Of course I'm all about my nails. Little did I know that if you scrub toothpaste on your nails, it can remove stains and also add a little shine. (Sidenote: it was also stated to add drops of lemon juice to your nails as a whitener)If you're rough like me and constantly mess up your stockings/tights, cut out the footies, throw them joints over your arms, and add some more random snags, holes, and runs as a fashion accessory elsewhere on your body.A lot of times, I cannot find the twin to my earring sets (which is why you see me in mismatched earrings a lot). Use buttons to keep your earrings together. (Place earring through each hole on one button)
If you're rough like me and constantly mess up your stockings/tights, cut out the footies, throw them joints over your arms, and add some more random snags, holes, and runs as a fashion accessory elsewhere on your body.
A lot of times, I cannot find the twin to my earring sets (which is why you see me in mismatched earrings a lot). Use buttons to keep your earrings together. (Place earring through each hole on one button)
I’ve been down and out. No job, had a car accident, no insurance, have to pay thousands of dollars for my own and someone elses. . .etc that list goes on.
but I see my only way to succeed is to keep pushing for a position relentlessly at places I would like to work and also places I rather not.
The constant pushing gets me lots of interviews and random opportunities (Some have given me paid travel experiences). But Yet No job offers. . .UNTIL NOW!
I just recently worked the St. Louis Auto Show which was a position gained through a staffing agency in Chicago. I thought that was really fun because not many people can say that they represented a car company at an event like that.
Well the new happenings continue: just this week brings me to the bible verse at the top of this post. I am on my last leg financially, and damn near physically. But I’ve been offered a position as
- a Lead Generation Specialist in Chicago,
- a Clerical Assistant for the City of St. Louis,
- and also offered another interview from the Agency that flew me to California 4 months ago (this time to work with Mini cooper).
All of these are full time and the last one is a high salary position. I’m floored by the options that just come up from no where. My stomach is still turning from all these ups and downs.
I’ve been rejected so many times that I’m not jumping in excitement as I usually do at big opportunities. I”m just quiet, low and moving. I’m just going to go with the flow and see where it takes me.
I’m going to Chicago now, and plan on being there in that position for a while. But I’m also not going to close the window on the other option in California. Either way MM has a lot spreading out that’s taking place.
#YouGottaPray
You all are probably tired of me talking about how I’m about to be 25. But that’s not the purpose of this post….
Regardless if you’re 18, 21, 25, 30, 40, or up to 80, there is always that specific point of time in your life when you realize that it’s time for something different. This could range from anything: to a new style, new relationship, new location, new healthy lifestyle, new hair, new hobbies….all that ish! And I am POSITIVE that I have reached that point right now in my life.
One evening, while at an event (and mind you!…this is an event that I am used to going to and usually have a decent time at)….ANYwhoooooo, while at this event, I found myself standing in the back of the room alone, looking around at everyone with an obviously confused face. Sorta like this:
…I was chill though….and not necessarily confused, but right at that moment I realized that I am too old for this ish, I no longer fit in, and it’s time for a new. It was like a whole life-changing moment at one of the most inconvenient times of my life!….but I guess sometimes that is what it takes.
Dawg…..I used to hate change. I don’t even know if it’s necessarily a “hate” for it, but change can be so scary. After all, you never know what type of change it will be; It can be happy change, moderate change, comfortable change, horrible change, or even unnecessary change. At that event, I realized that I need a little bit of it all. I need NECESSARY change which may take a MODERATE time to take in effect. It may have HORRIBLE consequences. But if it all turns out right, I may end up being HAPPY and I will have finally found my COMFORT zone for the point I am at now. I NEED that right now. New things intrigue me, focused passions are motivating me, and what used to make me happy doesn’t make me as happy as it did before. I need to find the rest of the components of this “new me” that I feel taking over. I need to initiate this change.
Ay dawg……..don’t be surprised when you see me posting pictures of my new place in San Francisco. I’m willing to make small changes by making BIG moves.
Man I saw this on Tumblr, watched it a trillion times, and ’bout teared up every time. This young dude from Australia’s Got Talent got up there and straight did his thing in a major way to Whitney Houston’s song “I Have Nothing”.
Bout to go out one night. Tried on a romper I haven’t worn in awhile. Couldn’t zip it up to the top. Talk about a buzz kill! A little bit of weight has snuck up on me and I refuse to be looking like the Pillsbury Doughboy out here when bathing suit season comes around. I’m not secure enough with myself to put my current weight out there but just know that I’m trying to lose 30 pounds.
Last year I lost a lot of weight by using the best app in the world: My Fitness Pal. It’s a calorie intake program that tracks your meals and calories throughout the day. Based on your current weight, height, and weight loss goal, it will set a specific number of calories to reach every day. (Sidenote: some people go on hardcore diets and try to eat less than 1200 calories, but you’re actually doing worse for yourself. That puts your body in starvation mode, which causes stress, and we all know stress = fat.)
ANYwhooooo, I started My Fitness Pal along with heavy vitamin intake and of COURSE exercise.
I decided in order to keep me motivated and on track, I will frequently update you all with my weight-loss process AND give you tips and tricks I learn along the way. This will keep me focused and might encourage anyone who is in the same position as I am.
If you are a member of My Fitness Pal or you want to join, add me as a friend on there. Username is: TwiggyKix
So my #girlcrush Jasmine Solano that I first witnessed behind the turntables at a Wiz concert back in the day is now taking her turn at the mic. Featuring Yelawolf, here is her single “One on One”. I dig this joint.
They’ve been out foreverrrrrr but this is like my new favorite group. This joint AND this video is killer all at once!
When you’re done with this, check out their song “This Love” as well. The song is super ill!
Yes, MM is taking over Skate King for the third time. It gets bigger every year!
Get comfortable be cause we are hitting the rink all night long, ad jammin on the side lines.
- – - – - – Saturday Feb. 4th
- – - – - – 11pm – 2am
Entry is $7 and if you want to skate is an extra $1
Please bring some paper and a pen if you are trying to get some digits lol
I really can’t say much.
so I won’t say anything.
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